!!greener grass

Who said that freedom to make your own choices rocks? Probably just a few of you thinks this way! I'll go with a crowd this time! Any ideas why? Cause every time I have to make some important (to be honest any) decisions in my life I can't recognize myself! One doubt leads to another doubt and creates a third one... and suddenly all my decision making process becomes so doubtful! Probably our thinking that we have only one choice is a problem and when you're trying to make a decision you feel like taking an A, B or C test with only one right answer.. Fair of failure?
I know I know.. If You Don't Fail You Will Never Succeed!
well I think (comment if I'm wrong) we face one more problem - we want our success RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW!!!
Think how easy it would be to make a decision if you had a magic box! The box that would show you how many times you'll fail and how long you'll wait for your success ..
well anyway I'll stick with a quote: If you'll take the easy way you'll regret for it some day!!!

I have to disappoint you if you are expecting an answer what is the easy way to make your decisions ... but I came up with a quote which might help a little bit

IF YOU THINK THAT GRASS IS GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE ... MAKE SURE IT'S NOT AN ASTROTURF (dirbtinė žolė) BEFORE YOU RAN THERE!!!

Let yourself to breath slower and don't forget to smile :)

I travel when I live cause I live when I travel!

....I have no idea who was that brave man that first said this phrase out loud but I am pretty sure that there are too many people who feel the same way so this quote can't belong to anyone :)
I keep asking myself why there are so many people that are travelings addicts! each of us own an answer.. I decided to share mine..
(why? cause sharing is caring.. :)  )
When I travel I meet new people... i hit new places almost everyday!
It's so easy to get into “no expectations” situation .. that's why it's easier to be yourself and then try to understand yourself!!!
It's harder than it sounds.. As long as I can call myself a hard worker I'll keep working on it!

I've found some interesting things while I was exploring England and I promise to share it with you...!

?exploring European NYC

I just wanted to share a picture of my favorite card!
I've been exposing myself to London too..
but in a different way though :)

!..fears

I think it was last spring.. I went to my friend’s house because she invited me over for a dinner. She has very tiny kitchen and really small fridge.. but what really caught my eye was a little yellow sticky on it.. There was a handwritten quote! I read it out loud:
“What would you do if you had no fear?”
Suddenly my friend turned around from the kitchen counter and told me that it’s her favorite quote! She was trying to explain how meaningful it is.. that we should ask this question ourselves each and every day. It seemed like she could talk about it all night long.. so I just nodded my head couple of times and tried not to get deeper into this conversation… till last night!
What happened last night?
It was already 3 am when my friend texted me to go for a ride. (..there’s no inappropriate time when it comes to a ride! If one day I’ll make a list of my favorite things – driving a car at night will be at the top of it ) so without any doubts I said YES! .. my friend said we can go wherever I want. I surprised myself but I easily dealt with a freedom of choice.. we went to a little town that has the Island Castle. To our surprise there were only couple small lights to illuminate the path to the castle.. but the castle itself was very dark and spooky. My wayfarer sensed my fear and started telling me about the horror movie my friend had recently watched.. when we went closer to the castle I was full of fear.. I could barely move. I turned to my friend and said: “No way I’m going around the castle” .. my friend hugged me and asked “Why are you so frightful?”….. .
All the sudden I went back to the tiny kitchen from the last spring!
“What would you do if you had no fear?”
It’s not a physical fear she was talking about .. I realized that the fear I’m feeling right now is too easy to escape. I just needed a hug..
But that fear from the little yellow sticky is a fear of life.. not a fear of death!
It’s a fear of failure… it’s a fear of being heartbroken… it’s a fear of disappointment… it’s a fear of being different… it’s a fear of being YOURSELF!
You are afraid to fulfil your childhood dream to be the best hairdresser/makeup artist/baker/photographer because your fear to disappoint your family or be laughed at.. is stronger than your passion!
so you keep trying to built a successful career wearing a dress suit.
You are afraid to be open for love cause you think you know the end of all your love stories … heartbroken! Your fear to be heartbroken is stronger than your desire to be loved.
You put yourself in a situation when you don't need an army to protect you ... you don't let anyone close enough to hurt you in a first place..!

We didn’t walk around the castle.. it was really too spooky and you know what? I let myself to be a fearful child .. full of fears for ghosts and fairy-tale creatures .. rather than thinking about my fears of life!

SO what would you do if you had no fear?

..balance!

.. it was one late night. . .. I was sitting and watching the ocean with my friend.. I was sad cause my summer season movie was over (I think that our lifes are like movies.. with a lot of episodes.. and I believe that the more charming actors/characters you have in your life-movie the more interesting it is.. but we'll talk about it latter..)! So i was really sad that my summer episode (TOW amazing summer) was pretty much over. My night ocean friend told me ..

Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.. !

(original quote belongs to Albert Einstein)

so that's what I do.. I keep my life's balance and after my summer episode I'm back in Lithuania . ..
..open for new episodes!